Ahem.

I think I have a crush on someone.

What Am I Supposed To Do Now?

I feel very lost and confused in many aspects of my life right now.

Umm Yeah.

Just as a future reference, I am making a new blog so that I can keep from people Googling their names and then finding my blog.

I felt bad that most of you could not read it, so I opened it up, but I want to close this one up here real quick, and get a new one started.

I just need to be careful not to drop last names so creepers won't creep in the future.

That is all.

Rushed.

That's a good way to described how I have been feeling. Bri brought it to my attention today when she asked why I sounded so "rushed." Blehh. I don't really know. All I know is that work is busy, I don't get enough sleep, and plans keep switching around and its driving me crazy.

Also, I hate how everyone is just now realizing that I hang out with Cam. Like, where have you guys been? I don't appreciate your dirty looks when I respond that I am going to hang out with him. This has been going on since December. Sheesh. You guys should know by now that I will defend him until I am dead, and that we are just friends. Goodness.

Why am I complaining? Tis only the life of college student.

I just need to get over it.

I'm doing my best to go to bed EARLY, but its hard because my sleep schedule calls for me to sleep at midnight, and wake up at seven. This waking up at six is killing me, even though there is only an hour difference.

Also, working long hours is kind of meh, but let's be honest. I AM MAKING BANK. Ahem.

I need to not complain. I am really starting to catch up to Rosie.

Although, I really really really really really really want to buy that Droid R2D2 phone, but do I really think I can afford an extra 30 bucks a month to pay for a data plan? That will put me somewhere really close to 400 bucks a month total on bills coming up in the fall. That is scary. I am wondering if I should wait. I don't want to though because I know I will never get it if I don't set aside the money now for it. I just need to not buy anything else. These will be my expenses after I buy the phone:

$40 at least for gas

$30 for my phone bills

So seventy isn't too atrocious, right? I mean, in the fall, the gas bill will become the internet bill, still putting me close to 400 bucks a month.

I have three weeks to figure all this junk out.

Spiraling.

It sucks that the pinnacle of my weekend just happened to be Friday.

I mean, there is nothing really wrong with that, but it sucked because the rest of my weekend just kind of bombed. Especially since Friday was the must fun I had had in ages. I was so happy that people were home, and everyone could make it out to Capitol.

Since Friday night though, I have been living in a fatigued fog with a chance of showers. Its been kind of a bummer. Katie was here this weekend, and it was a lot better than the last time that she paid a visit. Mostly because I was either out of the house working, or she was busy doing homework and running around with Rosie. I can't really explain why everything felt kind of bleh, but it did, and I cannot wait until my week starts.

I'm trying to fill up my days because my boss didn't schedule me extra hours even though I told him I was on Spring Break and that I wanted him too. I am secretly glad that I was able to have three days off, and so far the nights of my weekend off as well.

I feel that now that I might be starting to work and go to school at the same time that my days are going to get very repetitive and redundant. Blehhh, the life of a working class hero haha.

This was a really pointless, lame blog. Meh.

Well That Was Awkward

Never crying in front of him again. It was weird.

Mostly because I have known him for 4 or some odd years, and never once shed a tear in front of him. And it was weird because he was okay with it. I almost expected him to cringe away and run in fear because he didn't know how to act towards a girl crying over stupid shit.

God. PMS blows.

Not that what I wasn't upset over wasn't genuinely sad, but still. Really? I didn't even expect to have that conversation until about June or July. Oiiiiii.

C'mon Meg, get your act together.

Things Are Looking Up, Oh Finally.

• Got an apartment in East Lansing, literally a block from MSU's campus. (Maybe a little bit more than that, but I'm only counting major streets that I actually know the name of haha).
• Got a job at Subway.

YESSS.

I am so geeked right now. Seriously.

If only I could hear back from MSU. Sheesh. And they decided a week ago they would finally ask me for my HS transcript. Goodness gracious. It looks like Monday is going to be a Hell of a day for me. I have to open a checking account for work, hopefully get called into work to do my "testing", and go get my transcript. I might go to the high school before my class starts at noon. We'll see how motivated I am.

For now though, it looks like a huge plummet in my appearance at SP-type things, such as Small Group, and Game Night, because I totally put my availability over those times. I would feel worse, but I have been working there for over five years as a volunteer, and I REALLY need money.