I have this weird mixed-up kind of feeling going on. It's just a kind of blah feeling, and I'm not sure I like it. I feel sort of torn, and I feel sort of tired. All I do is think about what may be causing this feel, and I think I have a pretty good hunch. I almost can't take it anymore. I'm really trying hard, but I don't want to grow impatient, and I don't want to totally lose it before I have the chance to see if I can really get away from it all.