My Major.

(I have been listening to this non-stop)

I am still waiting to hear from MSU, which has me really worried. I keep checking to see what documents are missing and its still waiting for my ACT Writing score, which makes no sense because they have my other scores. So, I think I will pay the $2.80, or whatever, to have it sent, and then hope things fall into place with that. Hopefully.

I need a job for sure though. I need to have enough money saved up for a deposit and the first month, or two. I need a sense of security there, because I NEED TO MOVE OUT.

That's pretty much what it comes down to. I need a job so that things start to feel like they are happening. Right now. the fall seems like a dream, and that dream means moving out and actually me feeling like I am doing something with my life. I need to get the ball rolling so things start to fall into place. I have my hopes set high for EL, and I want more than anything for that to happen. Even if it means going to LCC, because that means I will at least be DOING SOMETHING.

So this leads back to MY MAJOR. I'm pretty sure no one is taking me seriously on this one, not even myself. What the fuck am I supposed to do with a Journalism major? Nothing. You're right. I know my mom has been saying it, but we all know that I don't listen until my dad starts being serious about something. He said he wasn't giving money to a school unless I was serious about my major. This got me thinking.

First of all, SHIT I NEED YOUR MONEY DAD TO HELP ME PAY FOR MSU, PLEASE BE OKAY WITH MY LIFE CHOICES. PLEASE, OH PLEASE.

Then secondly:

Do I REALLY want to go into journalism?

This idea has really been tossed around a lot. My mom keeps pushing me to go for business, but I think I would rather stab my foot with a pool stick than do that. I mean, I always did well in my English classes, and so this kind of confirmed that writing would be okay for me. I have taken other classes in college and enjoyed them just as much as my English classes. Its all so confusing, and I don't know what to do. Laura was going to go into Psychology, but my mom thought that was stupid and had her call MSU to change it to Environmental Biology. Should I change mine to a science as well? I enjoy science, but only Biology. Blehhh. I enjoyed Sociology and Psychology, but I don't feel like going to school for a thousand years. I also don't feel like being a teacher, and that's where most of these lead. My mom told me to go into Business with a German minor, but I don't know. I kind of suck at German again, and business is the worst idea ever. Also, what's the point if all the businesses are failing. Oi. Stupid economy.

These are my ramblings. I could talk about my weekend at MSU too, but it was nothing too exciting. I got drunk Friday, went to a frat on Saturday where all the boys wanted Rosie and not me, went to Barnes and Noble for six hours with Rosie and a couple guys, who also like Rosie, and Cam and I had an awkward discussion about how if we liked each other, that would be awkward. So, I was Awkward Meg all weekend long.