Weirdness.

I talked to him, finally, about the whole call process. He has finally accepted that things are going to move at a slow pace for him, and he is okay with that. He does know now that he will stay here until June, so that is a good thing. He also won a music writing contest for the LCMS (Lutheran Church Missouri Synod, and that means that his song will be published in Lutheran hymnals and maybe send him on a music career, but he can only hope for the second part of that. He told me that he is glad that we get a chance to work on our friendship first, because he doesn't know if he could handle keeping a girlfriend happy, and thinks that it may put too much on his plate already. He said he needs to call back the Florida people so that he might get the chance to plan a visit down there. So, I guess that means he might still be considering to go down there. He just needs to see what they have to offer and figure out what there all is going on. I guess this is just more wait-and-see kind of stuff.
Oh yeah, to add to all my weirdness going on, Drew has to go and tell me that he likes me. Great. Not that it changes how I feel about everything, but it just adds this weirdness to the relationship that Drew and I had. We were simply good friends at a distance. Or, at least that is the best way to put it. I have no idea, its just so strange. Whatever, its not like anything is going to happen with him. I am totally happy with the way things are right now. Okay, I am not 100% happy about it, but at least I am able to see the person I like, and I am not just kept at a distance.

Frustrated.

So, my sixth grade teacher died of cancer this week, and her funeral is on Friday. I was scheduled to work that day, but really wanting to go pay my respects, I called yesterday and told my boss that I wouldn't be able to come into work because of this funeral. I mean, its not like I couldn't call a week ago, because who was supposed to know this was supposed to happen? Not me. I also didn't think that my boss would get mad, but she did. She got mad at me because I was going to a funeral. A funeral. Are you kidding me? This teacher was a big deal at St. Paul, and she is the one who inspired me to o more with writing. I just don't get it. I even offered to work all day until four, so that would mean I would work six hours before I went and got ready for the funeral, but apparently that didn't work.
Anyways, Katie spent the night last night. She was going to help me today to do my project for Anthro by cooking up this meal that I need. We had the whole day planned out, and I was going to get my homework done at a reasonable time so that I could make it to church. Not happening. My boss texted me at 9:15 this morning telling me to come into work to make up for me not coming in Friday and that way she can still take her kids to the doctors. ARGH! So now I have to work, can't go to church, and won't get all the things done that I needed to, oh, and probably not hang out with Josh too. This is ridiculous.
Sorry for venting, I am just exclaiming how ridiculous this all is.

Gone.

I think I need to get away from him, just so he can figure out what the hell he wants with his life. He has so many things going on right now, that he doesn't know what he should concentrate on more. He is more indecisive than I am, and that is saying something. I don't know, I guess I feel bad for waiting around, but its not like I am going to go run off with someone else, because who else is there? Its just me waiting on him, because I like him. What else is there to say?

Sunshine.

How did I manage to get caught up in all this high school drama?
At least the weather is nice; it makes me feel a whole lot better about everything.

Update.

It's been a while, I know. I guess I have just been too busy lately to sit down and actually talk about something on here. I guess you guys could use a little update.
This past week was break, and it was pretty hectic for a vacation. The most memorable thing was finding out I was allergic to my medication. Who knew I was allergic to penicillin? Not me. I rarely am sick, so I guess that's why I have never really gotten the chance to find that out. I was taking the antibiotics because I had an infection in my throat and my lymph nodes were the size of eggs. I couldn't breathe, I couldn't swallow. It reallllly sucked. Then I became allergic to my Amoxacillin, and had to take some new stuff to get rid of the hives. It didn't get to the point of where my throat closed up, but it was getting there. It was awful.
I'm glad that I did have some good times during break though that helped to cancel out those nasty times. I hung out with Angel quite a bit, which was good. Then I managed to see Bill, which was also good. I did my St. Paul stuff as usual, and I was able to hang out with the people I wanted to. Bri's birthday went pretty well. It was really fun just running around and baking the biggest cake EVER. Also, making the most guacamole ever was awesome too. I thought it was a lot of fun. I was also able to purchase the Mute Math album, so I am geeked about that.
I guess I don't really have much to say. With the whole Josh thing, its pretty much just trying to figure out where we are in life and careers and emotions and everything. Its just really confusing. He needs to learn how to have faith in himself and trust himself better. I know that used to be an issue for me, and still can be, but I have found that if you can't believe in yourself, then no one else will believe in you either, and he needs to see that. Its just going to take a lot of work, but I guess I am here for him, so that is a good start. I just really wish that all of this would get figured out and we could start seeing some answers all around.

Sick.

I have never been sick like this before, and it really blows. I'm serious. I really hope that the doctor gives me some sort of super antibiotic tomorrow, just because I can't stand my throat hurting this badly. It also is not so nice when I have so many things going on right now, like possibly getting another job. I want to call the lady back, but I feel like it would be dumb to tell her that I can work, if I am sick like this. I mean, the job would be simple enough, and I don't really have to be in contact with people, but I still have to stay in someone's house and take care of someone in case something happens in the dead of night. Weird job, I know. I really hope this all clears up before Spring Break hits. I have a feeling that that might not be possible. I would also feel super incredibly bad if Josh got sick. I mean, he does have to sing as a major part of his profession, and that would kill him if he couldn't do that, simply because that is what he likes the most about his job. Hmph.