Quit Being A Weirdo.

I am going to make new friends and they are never going to meet you because you are creepy and follow behind me and try talking to them and act like you have known them for years. Cut it out, you are creepy. And stop trying to shove it into my face that you know them, big deal, they are my friends too, not just yours.

I'm In A Bad Mood.

Which was turned around a bit by learning that Fry will be coming home this weekend, so that was good to hear.

And my dad putting gas in my car, that was nice too.

But other than that, I have been just Negative Nancy all day.

• Somehow it took me until this morning to find out that I have a total of SIX exams next week. Count 'em, 1-2-3-4-5-6. Possibly seven if my German teacher decides to give us an oral exam, which she most undoubtedly will. I have two in Bio (Lab and Lecture), two in German (written and if oral happens, then that too), and THREE in math.
• Now about math. I fucking hate my math teacher that son-of-a-bitch. He teaches nothing and we are only on CHAPTER 3 and its the end of the semester. WTF. So we have test three on Tuesday, and test four stapled to our final exam on Thursday. I am so mad right now.
• To propel this situation further in to the depths of complete shit, I realized that I would also have no time to study this weekend, because I will be working 27 hours. Now, I shouldn't be complaining, because I REALLY need the money for my apartment in the Fall, but sjdhaljskhdsa, its exam week and its kicking my ass. To top it off, I work 2-8 on Easter Sunday, which is stupid, because everyone at my work knows I am like the only one who actually GOES to church. Those dicks. But, I guess since we just fired two more people, we need to start covering more shifts.

I just really need it to be spring. I need it to be warm, my classes to be over, I need the time to go and workout and burn off some steam, and there to be a bonfire scheduled. Sheesh. And maybe another Jimmy concert!

Single.

I may look like the biggest bitch ever, but at least I am being honest with myself.

Hmm.

I kind of have the feeling I may have rushed into things a little bit. Hmm.

More over-analyzing?

Weeeeeeird.

So, I feel a little better after just talking to Bri and having her talk me through this. I barely slept at all last night. It was a mixture of being excited, and being scared shitless. This relationship junk is scary, and I am definitely not used it, but I can learn. Its just going to take me some time. Mostly, I just need to stop over-analyzing things and just go with it.

It's just that I haven't done the whole serious relationship thing in a couple years, and I was given like a month to completely fall for the dude, versus right now where I decided I liked him like a week or two ago. Two weeks ago I decided I had a crush, last week I actually told someone about it.

I just really need to take a chill pill. Or, just down about five more cups of coffee.

I got this.

In All Seriousness.

So, on a scale of one to ten on how badly last night's "date" went, I would give it a six. That's not that bad I know, but its the awkwardness that killed it, and my own nervousness that killed any mood that was set for the night. I was too nervous to hold his hand when we were watching Big Bang Theory, making me come across as a dufus, and then being all awkward when it was time for him to leave. Oh yeah, after about two hours of trying to figure out what the heck to do last night, I just had him come over, that way my sisters could deter us away from any awkwardness that might have ensued, which no doubtingly happened. So we all played some cards, which was fun, and life was grand. He and I probably got through like four or five episodes of BBT, and then we played cards, and then we sat around and talked until Ashley's dad finally decided to take Ashley home after talking to my dad for a good hour first. Yeah, Ashley was there too for the whole time because she came home with Rosie from MSU last night.

I am seriously convinced that he thinks I am a bitch, or that I don't care. Bleh, hopefully tonight will be better. Then again, there will be more people here tonight, so that should change things a bit, and maybe make things a little less awkward. Although, if Anthony comes, then he is about to make me cry of embarrassment, because he likes to put me in those awkward situations. Then I will turn all red in the face, and life will not be good.

God, I sound like a high schooler.

Other than the craziness in my love life, work has been crazy too. We are now onto our third manager in under two months, and another person got fired this morning. So, I am assuming that drama is about to begin. Although, I kind of have a feeling like that my boss is really, really nice, and kind of likes me, but I get the feeling that she is hiding the fact that she is a MAJOR bitch. But so far, I like her a lot, and she seems a lot more fair, even if she has more rules. I am someone who will follow rules and just do what I am supposed to, so I'm not too worried about it. Which makes me feel optimistic about my hours coming up, and then when my availability changes, that might turn awesome. Hopefully I can make up for the lack of funds I am making this month and last month. Because right now, things are tight and blah.

I guess that's how everyone is feeling at this moment in time.

I need more coffee now. Five hours of sleep and being up for the rest of the night is not going to be good for my brain.

Ahem.

I think I have a crush on someone.